Sometimes silence can be deafening!
Here I am in my 80th year, the eldest child in a family of six children. I like company I am gregarious I am not used to being alone. married for 61 years.Life was full of fun companionship and noise..love and laughter
3 years ago whilst caring for my Husband who was living with Dementia I was looking for tranquility!
Now I have it, as he is no longer in my care, but thanks to Covid 19 I hate it. I cannot visit him. I cannot visit Family unless they are local to me. I miss my activities and friends I shared them with.
Books (my local Library delivered a bagful ) and Tv are the only outlet and sadly the TV seems to have an awful lot of rubbish and lots of repeats. The books have been a boon and I am almost finished a third one in 2 weeks!
. Browsing Netflix offers very little that I have not already seen or stuff full of violence or pornography……not entertainment in my view.
I apologise for the negativity..this is my only outlet ……If I chat with neighbours I have to show a positive face..and it’s mostly current affairs. If I chat with family it is to enquire about them. I don’t feel I can open up to them.
I have lots of days when I feel very low…I know I shouldn’t for I am fairly fit and healthy and lack for nothing………………
Now I am doubting whether I should publish this at all…………………….