looking for a listening ear!

Some days I feel like Shirley Valentine….”hello wall”

Trying to broach a conversation when the only person around cannot seem to tune in to you is a tad frustrating!!

yesterday I ventured bravely on my own to a fantastic concert at the Royal Albert Hall.being a fan of a TV series entitled ‘Nashville’ I just had to get to see some of the cast

in concert and what a concert it was.

of course i returned home brimming with things to say about the different artists and the music but all to no avail…My husband of 58 years and a great country music fan has started to lose his memory and can no longer recall what he sees on TV can no longer share in my enthusiasm.

This morning my daughter called in unexpectedly and related her experiences of the weekend. She went to a family party and told us all about it over a cuppa. husband sat there apparently listening. Later when I made comments about this party he could not recall anything she had told us!!!! Some days I feel like a record stuck in the groove…constantly repeating myself.

Mid afternoon I went to the Library for a chat with the Librarian….I just had to talk to someone!!



I set off this morning a whole hour before my appointment. (road works on the A15 were on my mind)

Of course I needn’t have worried…traffic was flowing fine and I reached the Hospital in plenty of time.

However…the Car park appeared to be full!! At 9.45????? then the entry barrier was up and no tickets were available. I had to drive almost to the exit before I found a space. ‘don’t panic ‘ I told myself ‘you have plenty of time’

Once inside the Hospital I began the trek to Cardiac Investigations……..a long corridor and then 2 flights of stairs  THE LIFTS WERE OUT OF ACTION.

Everyone who arrived at the desk was huffing and puffing…stairs are not good when you have a heart condition!!!! The receptionist said take a seat and get your breath back!!!

Twenty minutes after my appointment time ,my name was called. the procedure took 20 minutes and I was on my way…wondering how I was going to escape from the Car park without a ticket.

Arriving at the exit barrier I pressed the HELP button and lo and behold  up went the barrier…a result then and I hadn’t paid!!! a bit of a bonus after all the aggro.

By the time I got home I was ready for a cuppa but as I relaxed with one I opened my email only to discover a member of our extended family had sadly died in the early hours of this morning. My heart went out to my cousin, his wife. she will be distraught.

We never know from day to day what is going to crop up to bring either joy or sorrow. make the most of each day…………be thankful for many blessings!

Adult Grand children

Every now and then they decide to visit..but it has to be on their terms!!!

it’s Bank Holiday and they are up from the ‘smoke’

Can we fit you in between…………?

Just thought we’d pop over this morning………………………!!!

You are desperate to see them

What do you do? the midday meal is being prepared…it’s past coffee time

You cannot entertain and chat whilst your Husband frets that you need to be doing other things!!!

And yet..It’s nearly 4 months since you saw your Grandson:  you are torn…You suggest a few alternative times but this doesn’t fit in with their plans.

Hoping for the best you wait til after lunch…….and ring their parents….and Yes they are there

problem solved we can visit them!!!!!


Binge viewing!!!!

Guilty of the above having discovered a series on Netflix entitled ‘Heartland’

We used to watch it a few years ago on main stream TV and then it disappeared.

I guess it is too ‘nice’ to attract a huge audience. however I see from the FB site that they have a huge number of fans so that assumption of mine is wrong.!


anyway i have been busy catching up with the Heartland Family and have managed to get to Season 10! In the UK we would call it a soap opera but it is nothing like the dreadful (my opinion) stuff of East Enders or Coronation Street.

There are family dramas and difficult relationships but things usually work out. Not too much screaming and yelling…it’s a soothing escape for me and I love the characters. the writing is excellent and I have watched the characters develop through time.  does anyone else out there ever watch it?

Any thoughts?


What’s for dinner today?   How I hate hearing that every morning!

if it was up to me I wouldn’t bother!

Don’t get me wrong…I do enjoy cooking. It’s just that I don’t feel the need for meat and three or four veg everyday ,but it has to be served up, on time without fail. it means that no other activities can take place  unless warning has been given in advance.

Then of course those activities are overshadowed with worry about what time I should be back!

I am rationing myself to at least one outing a month sometimes being away for the whole day. Then my husband manages to make himself a meal!!

This week my outing was to London to hear the Brandenburg Choral Society perform Vivaldi’s Gloria and other beautiful pieces at the Temple church, in company of a good friend.

today’s menu?

Chicken in honey and mustard with roast sweet potato and parsnip and a variety of other veggies!!


We are not ourselves

A book chosen at random on my afternoon of volunteering at my local Library. Written by Matthew Thomas , his first Novel, a keenly observed story of family life.

I finished reading it this morning…a mere 14 days …Having to discipline myself not to keep reading at the expense of household tasks…it was difficult to put down.

Little did I know it was going to take me into a world that might well be my future as my partner of 58 years slowly loses his short term memory.

I hope I will not be like the Mother/Wife in the story who felt she could handle everything and not look for help…in fact i know in my heart I won’t be like that.

having raised four youngsters and always coped with everything that came my way, I have reached the stage where I feel I need to be cared for…but who is there for me?

it is hard to be positive and strong.