Despair

my heart is breaking

my eyes are full of tears

my husband of more than 60 years

cannot remember he is married to me

Looking through photos of family

he is not able to name anyone

looking at holiday pictures he knows not where we were

time of day seems to mean nothing to him

morning or evening are all the same

he rearranges clothes in the drawers

and changes his trousers several times

there seems to be no rhyme or reason

all is muddle and confusion

and I am going crazy too!

half an hour ago he was getting ready for bed

now he has rushed out to the garden

there is something that needs trimming

and it must be done

nothing will persuade him it is not the time for gardening

I cannot do this anymore……………………………..

Tomorrow he will be interviewed by a social worker

who knows what will transpire………………….

10 thoughts on “Despair

      1. I can’t offer to come and help out, but I can give all the moral support you want. We had my father-in-law living with us after his wife died. He’d had a stroke and had dementia. I had four children between eight years old and two. It was hell. AND he was a nasty piece of work even when he had all his faculties.

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